Faces

Today someone accused me of having an attitude the past few days and it just rubbed me the wrong way. I'm had a hell of a week and quite a month in general.
I am a very optimistic, happy, silly, fun happy organized and passionate person.
Honesty is my policy that's the game I rather play, not lies, not hidden motives and tension. If you hear something or if I come off a certain way open your mouth and question me! Cause more than likely you are reading my body language wrong and falsely interpreting my tone or diction.

This was my Facebook status like 5mins ago:

You NEVER know what kind of day someone is having or what major circumstance they are facing in their lives. THINK about that before you assume and come at them the wrong way.

 

I learned this simple philosophy in high school by my Colonel Rodriguez to be exact. He taught me that as a leader its important to relate to your people/platoon/squad or whatever it may be. Someone could have had a death in the family, lost their pet, got dumped, pulled an all nighter, perhaps they are anxious for health reasons it could be anything! And if you come off wrong and start complaining that their attitude sucks or they aren't present cause they seem in a daze... how about you give them a hug? relate to them? ask are you ok?

I'm not gonna lie I've been in a fog and it keeps getting denser but I know God is going to change the weather in my life very soon. I am swamped right now. My club, my business, my clients, and oh yea my finals in all 3 studio classes! I'm doing the most yet I'm in a fog and staying optimistic. Keeping a smile on my face to keep the positive energy flowing and crying at night to drain the negative vibes from my spirit. Spring break is two weeks away and boy is my spirit looking forward to taking a break from it all.

 

So please please please PAUSE before you speak to someone. Don't come off wrong cause there is always more to the story. They could be on the verge of tears and your inconsiderate comment or speculation can be their last straw.

The hardest thing...

The hardest thing just became harder.
A las God has put me in complete isolation
He's pushed and forced me to relinquish everything and anything
That either has or have had potential to be greater than Him.
My God is an awesome God
But he is also a jealous one.

Am I scared... of course
Crying... Duh
Confident.... Over time

I've been lifting all of my concerns and worries up to God but today... oh Lord today God made me pack up, lift and carry the one thing I had left. And honestly in all my pain and hurt I still love God and I know that he is testing me. Because if I trust Him and have Faith in Him then I should just know that my problems are taken care of. The healing process that remains is asking God to remove this pain from my heart. Confessing to Him that I've given Him my EVERYTHING! And thats where my problem became a problem. I allowed my greatest concern to be bigger than God, I allowed him to be my everything, my backbone, my picker upper. But that is a job for God. God is my EVERYTHING my backbone, my provider, no man but God can treat me and deliever me.

So therefore I am solitary floating in the hands of Jesus...

Lonely nights, rough days, sad news it's just me an Jesus. I sincerely told God I wanted to get closer to Him and he is simply answering my prayer. I didn't prepare myself for the serious TURN OVER in my life that occured but God gave me a strong heart and an optimistic spirit and when I tell you I am fighting the devil boy am I fighting the devil! I am fighting depression, I am fighting lonliness, I am fighting doubt because God did not put those things in me. I know it will take time but God with his love will be patient and kind and help  carry me to a place of happiness like never before.

God I truly truly truly GIVE MYSELF AWAY.
Watch me and protect me, be my Lord and Savior.
My happiness and understanding is next to you, this time I'm not going anywhere.

 

Exodus Chapter 20:

1 And God spoke all these words:2 "I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.3 "You shall have no other gods before me.4 "You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand [ generations] of those who love me and keep my commandments.  





I gotta fall in love with Jesus and if it is his will then one day I'll meet you again.

 

RIP

I was trying to deactivate a joint FB page I created years ago with Pear but I forgot the email address.
I went to it and wen to the about page and found something I wrote a while back:

Pearanie = ♥

"We're two made into one.
Best Friends
Sillies
Firsts' and lasts'
And Forevermores.
We're the soon to be,
The never Ending.
We're the unexpected but everywhere accepted.
We are...PEARANIE."

-Lil' Silly-Pee

Perry always told me "I'll never let you do anything you'll regret" -Silly Pee

And I don't regret a thing...

If anything I grew and learned and God brought me here. To a place where I must put God first. My mistake was making something in my life bigger than God himself. That was no-no but not anymore. My eyes are no longer blurred I just pray that his vision will clear up as well. Sooner than later for his sake.

Nevertheless, I'm gonna force myself to see the light that God always puts out for me ahead of my every footstep. Its time for me and God to build the relationship I've desired for soo long. I never knew this was the path he would take... but no one said loving God was filled of things you like. Its going to be tough and I might not like it sometimes but I have to have faith that HE knows best. He will bring me the desires of my heart. And whether thats Perry or not i don't know. But by getting closer to God the path he has for me will become clearer to me and one day he will reveal to me the man that reflects the love that God has for me. I'm going to trust and believe that and Love God for he loved me first.

R.I.P.   Pearanie - 04-24-10 > < 02-21-13

Leave it in God's hands and let Him do his divine work!

I post this because its something I am over coming that may be a blessing to someone else's life.

You are not in control of your life, if you want to get an understanding of what to do and where you are going in life you need to conversate with God and ask him to remove the distractions and noise so that His divine still voice can be heard loud and clearly in your heart. But I'll tell you what I learned later, when you sincerely make that prayer be prepared for what you are praying for it won't be easy, you may be shocked, you may cry, you may loose some people, but its all apart of God's divine plan. Like my spiritual mommy told me, a year from today I will look at this as a small thing of the past. 

All of this is easier said than done, but my heart is passionate about my Savior and I know only he can come in and heal my heart and provide me the understanding I must patiently seek.

GLORY BE TO GOD

Nappaversary SHOW!

The Nappy Hutt celebrated their anniversary with Dinner and Designs at the Andaz Hotel in Downtown Savannah! We had such a fancy fun night! We had over 20 models of assorted ages and one male model. Taliah Waajid herself was in the audience along with her Atlanta hair crew of family and friends! I was proud and happy to be apart of the night, The Nappy Hutt deserves the attention, the credit, and the opportunity! I know this event is just the start to more and more showcases for all the years to come. Even as I grow out of Savannah and leave SCAD I will always represent my Rising Nappy Nation Family. They molded me into the natural guru I am today! Sharing what I learn, methods, styles, and tips and more to the readers of this blog any natural beauty I photograph! In the picture in the top left corner is ZAKIYAH!! aka AMINI she is my frequent stylist and did the rocking twist out doo on my head you see there. She is only 18yrs old! This girl is gonna go far in hair and anything else her heart may desire, she's a great person to be in the company of its always a pleasure to be in her chair (on a good day ;) Just Kidding AMINI! <3 

The following images are just more from the night! I was really feeling my hair there is just something about volume that suits me and Ms. Shawn loves my hair in a fresh twist out. My outfit is brought to you buy Charmine of Charming a la Mode! My earrings are my new best friends lol. Ms. Shawn said my earrings were too conservative for the outfit so I had to go shopping real quick but I'm glad I found these babies. As my brother said "Storm wants her earrings back" lol. That little booger of a brother. He was just jealous cause I looked fly.

BEFORE!!

So my hair was actually a THREE DAY process! Amini washed and combed out my hair and blow dried it to utilize my length to maximize the volume in the end product of my hair.

 

 

THEN she began in the front her vision there was clear and concise. Mohawks suit my face! so to braid the sides was an easy choice to make. In the center of the front of my head I had two-strand twists. Now for the back that was a process. Originally I was going to have tuck and folds but when that wasn't working out Amini tried alternatives. Ms. Shawn wanted color though especially for the sake of the show you gotta be bold and go all out! OF COURSE I was not going to dye my hair so they chose Burgandy for my hair. and I'm not gonna lie I was really feeling it. On DAY 2 of my hair Amini came up with the spiral awesome yin and yang feeling in the back of my head and she also incorporated more color. The color is so intentionally placed it seems almost painted in the right spots I love it. After that I had to just keep my hair safe till the day of the show (DAY 3) and had my twist out!

AFTER!!!

Hoy

My email buzzed me last week.
My Phone reminded me 10 mins before today.
My I said it in my mind when the clock struck 12.
My heart waited for the moment to be shared...
God is showing me what really matters in life.
So I left my mind, consoled my heart, i even stayed up to hear your voice.
Love so strong future unknown.
I'm gonna leave it alone and let HIM  handle it.
We don't wanna neva end but today proves the end is true.
Until further notice today is today.
The weather let it be what it may,
I love you either way
Happy ....day.





2-24-13

A Phenom TWIST OUT

So I have so many pictures of my latest hair style that I thought it would be most appropriate to share the look and to describe how I was taught by Zakiyah (one of my hair stylist at the nappy hutt).

So here is the photo journey!!

This front portion here are two strand twists.  In the back of my head these are not braids/cornrows. These are actually twists agaisnt the scalp! They do the same job as cornrows but no pulling and pain!

side views of the hair do.  Zakiyah pinned up the back in the center of my head kinds creating a crown almost.  All my twists in the front followed and did the same.

 

 

The following photos are just me actually sporting the style. It awesome how it can transform from like a sexy conservative to a sexy sassy with the twist out. 

Now how does the twist out actually work?! Well the way I was taught is to take some product - I used Taliah Waajid Black Earth Product called "The Strengthener" Medicated. I take a little bit of product on my finger tips and run it from scalp to hair end and then I begin to rotate the twist in the opposite way it was formed, this causes the twist to unravel instead of being picked apart. be careful not to tear apart the previously twisted strands or else it'll get frizzy. Over time hair swells after a juicy twist out which gives your hair a fuller look.

 Now I had all these curlies bouncing every which direction and I pinned them in a way that gave it some order. In the very last image was the day I was going to get my next hair do and I let the curlies free with no pins. Oh yes and I'm wearing contacts :)

R.I.P. To those Hoop earrings that broke :(

FISS @ University of Florida

So this weekend I have been in FLORIDA!!

The Florida Invitational Step Show(FISS) in Gainesville happens Valentines Day weekend every year on the University of Florida Campus.
Representing the Iota Men my Perry stepped twice in the show. He had a solo step representing Iota Phi Theta. His step went IN!!! He did a really good job, it was fast and clean and percise, and thankfully his FRAT backed him up in the stands. All the other iotas were centaur walking in the bleachers and Perry was on the mainstage. It went so hard my video is all shakey because of their stomping lol! But its a blessing to feel the love and support of his Frat for him.

He also stepped in the NPHC Unity Step which was very cool too.
I was not able to get a gig as a photographer for FISS this year but you know what I was cool with that. It was nice to sit in the stands and enjoy the show. I took some video and snapped some shots of him as momentos but it was nice to be his girl reppin in the stands as well. I'm very proud of him. He is so passionate about stepping and representing and it really shined through in each performance.





On ANOTHER NOTE....

Some hair and fashion things went down too.
Charmine of Charming a La Mode styled my outfit for FISS and I twisted out my hair-do from The Nappy Hutt specific for this weekend.

Zakiyah of The Nappy Hutt gave me a quick sassy up do with the intentions of it later becoming a twist out.

I ALSO succeeded in getting my darn contacts in my eyes!! So I was looking amazing at FISS :)

Tonight I'm going to visit my Dad for dinner then tomorrow morning I will be off to Savannah!
Florida it was fun while it lasted! I will see you in the Spring for Spring Break!

<3

New Year New Nappy Hutt = 2014!!

December of 2012 saw me with a head full of Bantu Knots by a young girl who didn't last too long at The Nappy Hutt. BUT while she was there she gave me some funky bantu knots that I rocked all of December till the week before Christmas.

After the bantu knots I unraveled them. I proudly took my observations from Trell (the QUEEN on Pin-ups at the nappy hutt) and pinned my curly fries together in a very sexy (sorta androgynous look) that I rocked into the New Year! The front corners of my scalp right before my ears do wonders for me when pulled back. My face is angled and just damn awesome looking. lol.

Here are some ways I rocked my curly fries pinned up.

I rang in the new year with my Bebe/ Neo Perry on the downtown streets of Delray Beach, FL and watched fireworks from the roof top of a local garage :) and  a peak of the moon from the beach.

Since then I returned to Savannah with Perry and we spent the last few days of our winter break together before we parted ways and went back into our academic schedules :/

Last night I got my hair done at no other place but THE NAPPY HUTT and celebrated my anniversary with them lol. I've had my hair styled by all of the hairstyles starting with Trell and last night I cycled back to her :) I was blow dried a little bit in the process of getting some braids and damn near cried. Heat hadn't touched my hair in nearly a year but my thickness and tangley curls were cramping Trell's hand sooo she heat protected my hair and blow dried it some. I constantly touched it making sure it was still ok but my tresses and I made it our safely lol.


I also got a TRIM!! No more bad ends (again) and I'm hoping to keep up with it by doing the following:

-No more keeping hair styles in for 4+ weeks. Since my hair is so coiled and curly I have the advantage of not needing a wash as frequently because the oils from my scalp take longer to travel down my hair shaft. Unfortunately I have abused this advantage and pulling out months old braids and twist leave my head full of sad oily dirt balls in the roots and hair ends.

So new rule!!! No matter what I wash every 2 weeks. and I'll trim every 2-3 visits. I'm getting a lot more comfortable with the idea of trimming my hair. I went from anti scissors EVER to once in a while. but my hair depends on my hair ends to grow and this year I am DETERMINED for some super growth. So my hair ends come first!

Lots of people straighten their hair to see how long its gotten but after straightening my hair for so long back in the day I don't need to do that. I know based on my fro and portions of my hair whether my hair has gotten longer or not. Its grown a little but not as much as I know it can with better care.

But I'm in good hands at The Nappy Hutt, I just have to do my part and show up!

In even better new The Nappy Hutt will be expanding into a brand new and much much bigger Shop! more details to come!

Thoughts from a MAN about women Hair!

So today I was talking/texting a new friend, Ronnie Williams, about an assortment of things. But of everything we talked about the topic of hair brought about a discussion well worth blogging about!

So here was our little Q&A + some insight from me for the readers lol.
I(Me) began by saying the word HAIR and Ronnie(R) has to respond to what came to mind first...

Me: Hair
R: My favorite thing about a woman physically.

Me: Why do you like hair so much?
R: Ok...so much can be done with a woman's hair. There's a wide range of styles. Also, the way a woman keeps ger hair usually determines what type of person she is. For instance, if a woman keeps her hair neat, clean, and nice all the time, she's usually a tidy, organized, neat woman. Women with consistent weave are usually more lazy and dependent. Women who try many hair styles are free spirits!!! A woman's hair just says so much about her.

I couldn't agree more! I have plenty witnesses to the "women with consistent weave" especially in college students. Not to condem anyone for saying this but a frequent story I hear from female college students is that they cover their natural hair because they'll be too busy to deal with their hair, they won't have time, they don't want to be bothered with it, or perhaps they can't afford their chemical routines while in college.

Me: I think this is so insightful especially coming from a male. So what does my hair tell you?
R: You aren't afraid to be yourself, you're creative and innovative. You are tidy and responsible. You're confident. Thats what I get from your current hair style.
Me: So true! I gotta blog about this and quote you.
I gotta agree with the man. When I enter the nappy hutt I tell them I got some professional events and church to attend but I also need to exert a creative unique me in my daily hair styles. And when a woman is proud of her hair confidence will always be on her side.

Me: So what do you get from your girlfriend's hair?
R: Adrionna is conservative and humble. She is proud of her natural beauty. She stays within her comfort zones.
Me: Does she wear her hair naturally?
R: Not completely natural as in no chemicals. But she doesn't do weave.
Me: do you have an opinion on women chemically treating their hair vs. wearing their natural hair?
R: I don't think women should put chemicals in too often. Just enough to keep it manageable.


Okay okay now this is where I get to go on a mini rant. Ronnie's response isn't wrong but just ill educated like that of many other men and women on the WORLD! Natural hair is not I repeat NOT High Matienence!
I'll tell you whats high matienence, perms and relaxers and blow outs. They keep you from the pool, they keep you running from the rain, they keep your hair lifeless, they chemically break down each and every hair follicle causing you to buy more products to prevent your hair from actually breaking off. Seriously do your research its pretty scary stuff! Go into a hair product isle, look for the relaxers and then note what you see next to next to those relaxers...(reconstructors, products to give your hair body/lift, extra conditioners, etc.)

Natural hair is always "managable" with the use of the right products. Everyone's curl pattern is different, everyone's texture feels and acts a different way therefore by seeking the advice of a professional and some experiementation you can find NATURAL products for you Natural hair that complement your hair and make you feel beautiful as you are. Your hair is capable of growing beautifully with very little maitenence and guess what natural hair LOVES water!

The concept of natural hair being inappropriate, not for the work place, and hard to manage is a lack of education, a lack of self-confidence, and influences from years of a segregated society where the caucasion image was the "right" image and was idolized by african americans who pursued educations and careers they felt they had to "fit the image".... Times have changed people! Natural is not wearing a mask, its not chemically straightening your hair. Natural is rocking the beautiful hair God blessed you with. Your hair is not a nightmare and its not a curse its a blessing! In my blog and in the natural hair photography i've done on www.nappyhutt.com you can see our beautiful BLACK HAIR can do the most! Wear it long or short with no use of scissors. Braids, coils, twists, locs, and even straight with the use of a HEAT Protectant!
Over the break I read the book Thank God I'm Natural! I highly suggest it to anyone who is natural or trying to decide to start the journey back to their roots(literally). The book tells the truth to many natural hair myths. Breaks down how relaxers work, how the hair follicle grows, breaks down the names of ingrediants in your local stores hair prooducts. She shares with you the good the bad and the ugly WITH PICTURES TOO! And in the end she even gives you recipes on how to make your own products! So if you are on a budget no worries! The best products are probably already in your kitchen. Reading that book her opinion was even more relevant because she is a lawyer. So its insite from a working professional who proudly rocks her natural hair.


Think about it... what's stopping you from embracing how God made you?

https://www.facebook.com/thankgodimnatural

Swimming in Thoughts

Guided by random songs on Pandora
I've been pushed in a pool
Swimming in thoughts of not just me but you.
I'm a fixer I motivate I take control I deliver a resolution
But for once and of all times God has stopped me in my tracks.
I can't fix it
Its not my life to control
HE has the resolution and YOU have to seek Him for it.

Listening to songs that may reflect us....

 

Listening to songs that might sum up your thoughts...

 

Listening to songs that start to explain my thoughts...

Better yet this one by Jill Scott is dead on...

As Ceelo would say, I'm a fool for you.
The fool in me will never blame you outright
The good in me wants to fast forward two weeks.
Meanwhile the fool wants to just let things be
The bitch in me can't stop speculating what the fool in me refuses to believe.
The drive in me keeps my equilibrium in one peace...
That's how the grades stay up
And the career stays on track
Despite the roller coaster my drive will be in tack.
I'll love you like my heart desires.
I'll yearn you'll feel the same.
When God is ready for me to wake up he'll drag me out of these divisions
And truth will have no choice but to be my friend
Maybe then I'll return to me.

Liars!

-__-

That's my initial face when I find out someone has lied to me.
I just don't understand WHY LIE?!

The truth is light and it will always come out!

James 3:8, "But no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison."

People say oh I wanted to tell you in person, or oh you were having a good day i didn't wanna tell you bad news... -__-

Let me tell you I don't need anyone PLAYING GOD trying to determine what I can and can't handle. You are not my master, you are not my savior. Everything happens for a reason, Lies always go over better when you are upfront about them too. If you let months go by knowing that you did something awful yet try to continue a happy normal life YOU ARE FOOLING YOURSELF!
You know the truth.
God knows the truth.
And there is a good chance you have a witness in most cases that you may not even know about.

I'm not saying you should tell all your business so not to lie. But if you are uncomfortable telling someone something let them know! Don't give them a false story cause you don't want them to know the real one. That's how a small lie gets built up for days and years and so on...

I'm at an age and a point where I just feel so disgusted when someone lies to me. Depending on how much I trust and love them that disgust can grow to heart ache and distance separation. Sometimes you lie and don't even notice, But you need to come around and fix your lie. Make it known and apologize. Now if I barely know the person and I catch them in a lie...then shoot its an easy eye roll and good day sir or madame!

What does the BIBLE say about lies?

Proverbs 12:22 Lying lips are abomination to the LORD: but they that deal truly are his delight.

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At age 20 I can honestly say that this week is the toughest week I have had in a really long time. Within this week great things have happened but they've been shadowed by dark sad things at the same time. I have a feeling in my heart that has me tense and reaching out to God like never before.
Sometimes I'm scared, I'm sad, I'm lost but that's where the test comes in. Despite my sad reflections I have to remember what does Jesus say? What comfort and help can he provide me?

Philippians 4:6-7, “Be anxious about nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication let your requests be known unto God and the peace of God which passes all understanding shall keep your heart and mind.” 

I was taught the steps of a Good Man are ordered. God doesn't want you to walk a life a failure and darkness. But in all your desires and aspirations I was taught you should bring it up to God and ask him if this is his will. Ask God to remove anything from your life that displeases him and to order your steps in the word of Christ, himself.

Psalms 37: 23-26 The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and he delighteth in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord upholdeth him with His hand. I have been young and am now old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken nor his seed begging bread. He is ever merciful and lendeth and his seed is blessed.
Psalms 199: 105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.

1 Corinthians 10:13 says... International Standard Version (©2012) No temptation has overtaken you that is unusual for human beings. But God is faithful, and he will not allow you to be tempted beyond your strength. Instead, along with the temptation he will also provide a way out, so that you may be able to endure it. King James Bible (Cambridge Ed.) There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

I have all these keys and aides in the Bible yet I sometimes feel that I find them too late. But its never too late. When God makes his word known to me on the Internet, through a friend, or another means that IS my way out of a tough situation.

Matthew 11:28, “Come unto me all you that labor and are heavy laden with the burdens of life. When you come I will give you rest.”

Though my battles may seem long I know Christ is with me. I pray that this post blesses someone one day.

I'm coming LORD...

 

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