The Devil tried to get me

I dreamt of your wedding tonight. It made my chest hurt You were grown and tall And a military vet And oh yea i was never invited When i dreamt of your wedding I saw it with friends on a DVD recording Your mother was there She looked disappointed. You married an Indian woman You had an Indian wedding You kneeled on the ground N prayed to Allah My jaw dropped While your mom shrugged her shoulders Your clothes were new and nice But baggy with hair all over your face not trimmed very nice At the end of dvd 1 everyone left but I searched for dvd 2 cause the reception wasn't shown yet. My mom and dad said they were ready to go I screamed not yet And my mom spoke to me lOw She said it's been nearly a decade and I need to let go of this shit I told her whatever I didn't care one bit. .. I think what has got me up and writing all this is the fact that I pray for your success everyday Yet i had a dream of what I would consider a failure. I pray God brings you confidence and help. I pray God gives you the strength I got. I pray that God gives though a pure passion in your heart, one that will cause you to yearn for him and fully invite Him in your heart... I pray this Prayer alllll the time. I'm serious about my loved ones and their spirits. Yet I dreamed a dream that showed nothing but defiance. I dreamed a dream that some would say means I'm doing nothing. But i state this loud and proud for the devil and all his demons ... YOU WILL NOT HAVE HIM! I don't care how many decades go by... I don't need to be witness to all the events cause I put you in the hands of someone who is guaranteed to make it alright. I want to run into one day doing marvelous things. I want to hug you one day and sense the spirit of God in your being. I trust God to do this and more. So fuck you Devil and this dream. This heart ache you trying to lay on my chest won't succeed. I rebuke you and all these negative things. Memoirs of Anie never end they just swing. -6:10am 1/21/2014 Shared from Google Keep

Standing Still

Standing Still

I wish I could do more
To replenish that smile on your face
Your happiness is the warmest embrace

I write when there is nothing left to say
But a heavy heart and desire to change
Crave
Craving all that you are and can be
Standing still
Patient is all I can be
We all try to do our best
Time don't judge nobody

I'll stand with you
If you stand with me...

01.05.14

Sticky Business

Sticky Business


When I miss you I help myself to your instagram
Funny the way we live now
People rather text and double tap
Instead of verbally expressing how they feel

Write me a letter
Spill your heart on the floor
I'm listening
I'll receive
Making you feel better is never a chore

I'm not a people pleaser
But i love to please others
I'll show you what the golden rule stands for

When I miss you I help myself to your instagram
I look cause there is nothing more to double tap.
Before i smiled unsure
Tonight i smile knowingly.
Knowing that we've met
Knowing that we are defiantly friends
Knowing that we both have a lot to offer
And hoping that when you are ready
You'll consider me as more than just option.

01.05.2014

COOL

It's cool
Yea yea yea
New Year new me... I guess
But too many people say that
And never change shit

It's cool
I learned patience
But patience made me anxious

Months of talking and texting
The do's and don't s
Knowing that God promised me exactly what i want

I'm patient cause i know it's coming
But boy am i anxious
Especially when I see you coming

It's cool cause i tell myself to chill

01.05.14

Shhh! It's Okay to Forget

It's okay to forget
Not that you need my permission
I want you to know it's okay to forget.

Separate the memories from the emotions
Realize that you are never losing
Only winning or learning.

Smile and be grateful for what you had
Let it Motivate you to never settle
Allow it to inspire you
Remind you of your worth

It's really okay to forget
God gave me permission
Burn it
Keep it
Hide it fRom yourself

One day it will be a distant memory
Another item in the closet
Something to smile at and push aside because you have a wife and child
Or maybe you'll return to mamas house
And she'll remind you when you had all of these pictures from a girl way back when
You'll laugh and wonder where they are
When she tells you their gone
I bet it won't hurt anymore.

It's okay to forget
Because i have
I take it for what it was and smile
I was spoiled
I was grateful
A first love well devoted in time
But quite the lesson that changed you and I

Certain things will never be the same
But you'll forget and relearn them again
I'm learning to love
By loving HIM
And HE's taught me how to forget and how to forgive.

2013/2014

Take a Picture

 

Take a picture

A photograph of you
Is a phOtograph of me
A reflection of how I see you
The essence of your being

Click click
Take a pic
Get that aperture right
Must be sure to tell your story right

Within the frame
Is all that I have for you
Respect
 Dignity
Understanding too
It's more than making you look cool
I create a relationship between the light and you.

My camera understands you mOre than I do
If you're a real model that will change soon.

- Jan 5th, 2014