..................................................................................................Not gonna happen.
I'm blogging about this because a statement needs to be MADE.
Everytime you reach out to me I'm short with you.
You think I'm just being mean and putting on a tough girl act
-___- WRONG.
The love and care I have for you will never die. It has only been transformed.
It's been transformed into blockades I use to guard my heart.
It's been transformed into wisdom and knowledge I use to enlighten and bless other women so that my experiences and pain may be a blessing to them.
The love and care I have for you has been transformed into fuel that only strengthens me through and IN Christ.
I don't beg for company
I don't beg for friends
I don't shut people out
I DID NOT shut you out.
I have no problem calling you or talking to you but if there is no purpose in conversation then I'm done. I don't waste my time with anything that does not uplift me, put a smile on my face, or encourage me.
Conversation with you is an unstable rollercoaster. There is a random sorry somewhere, maybe some admitting and sometimes you'll actually say something meaningful and kind like that last text message you sent. But then it'll flip into cussing and yelling cause you're "mad at me" but what you really are is frustrated with yourself.
I've kept my word to you and myself.
I've kept your name out my mouth.
I've kept my opinions between me and God alone.
You come to mind and I say a prayer.
No weapons formed against me shall prosper.
I rebuke any negativity and negative energy in the name of Jesus.
I'm flying above it all.
I'm not blogging about this because someone blocked me on Facebook and I'm upset.
Whoever is reading this understand this above all else....
People will come and go in life, that is for sure.
As a believer you are responsible for loving everyone and showing love to everyone just as God loves you. Enemies, haters, discouragers, or random people you meet. You are NEVER in the wrong when you continue to show love and respect to another being. Everyone deserves kindness and everyone deserves to be shown love.
Do all the good you can for all that you can for as long as you can. But when the good you are doing hurts you that's when you back off. That's something I struggled with for months. I felt wrong, I felt mean for ignoring calls and messages. But when I did I was hurt, disrespected and played. point blank. You are not being mean by protecting yourself. Remain peaceful and respectful and love the person from afar. You are not in control. Let God know how you are feeling and back away. I left this and you in God's hands a long time ago. I've let it go. And whatever God wants he is going to get. He is Almighty and He is in TOTAL control.
I may seem alone.
I may seem lonely.
I may seem like I'm missing out.
But don't let assumptions confuse you with reality.
Nothing is easy, and its a daily struggle.
But my faith won't let me fall.
Doors close and others will open.
Enemies fall and heroes will rise up.
I trust God to bring me positive energy and God fearing people around me to support me and get me where God wants me to be.
hmmph Jamaican proverb is ringing true today!
Every Dog have dem day and every Cat have dem 4 O'clock
God Bless you on your travels.
