Books & Boys: I just want to Study

Books aren't heavy, but they excite my mind.
I reach for them and plan to learn all I can.
Boys comfort and care.
Boys don't like when books rule.
Understanding can only go so far...

Compensation and Sacrifice:

Tomorrow is my first day of class. I am stoked!!
I'm still adapting to roomates though after living alone for so long.
I just need to get a feel for how well I can trust these girls with my stuff and my life.
Conversation with the boy is touchy and quick.
Lack of detail, lack of converstation length.
I feel bad cause those are all areas I have been working on.
But now I don't really let it bother me.
There are too many new things going on for me to relate every second of it.
New faces, new school mates, new grass, new skies.

I just want to study and learn and grow and mature in ART.
And nothing more.
But my life without him leaves me cold on one side and lonely on another.
Life without him leaves me like I am now:
Night before my 1st day and no one to share my excitement and tell me I'll do great.
No one to say Baby I'm so proud of you, I miss you, I know you'll do great.

Am I asking for too much?

God has something in store for me. Because my passion to learn is far too great and whenever I am down and ready to fall inside, my phone rings.

its my sillyp.