Dear Blog its Summertime

Today is June 3rd, 2013 and I am not home.
I am enjoying my summer doing nothing and currently on the couch of my friend's house apartment in Sav.

In my mind my summer began last weekend with my wonderful weekend working with Shannon. That week was the start of my last week of school and it was empowering and beautiful but haven't had time to write about especially since I've told the story of that weekend so many times. I have to sit and kinda get into the mindset of that weekend. And I can't wait to do so cause it was truly beautiful :)

Today is Monday. and my summer began Friday. I worked all day Friday and the end of Saturday for SCAD 2013 Commencement. SCAD puts on a beautiful graduation and I hope the graduation in the fall is just as nice. Working that graduation got me hype and so pumped for my last year at SCAD. It also inspired me to walk not only as a SCAD graduate but a graduate of another school... Yes my friends, talk about grad school has come up again. And I'm praying and watching to see what the verdict will be but I'll be looking into all my options later this year. When I walked in my high school graduation I surely and proudly dropped a tear. Yes my parents were proud but I even more so. It was a super accomplishment and I worked really really hard through the IB program for years!
Finishing my undergrad degree in only 3 years is a greater reality now and I couldn't be more proud of myself. I will be one of thousands sitting before the stage in the civic center ready shake hands and receive my honors. Working graduation I learned about the different color tassels you get by academic school and the designation for graduating with honors which I put below:

Summa Cum Laude - equal to or greater than 3.90

Magna Cum Laude - equal to or greater than 3.70 and less than 3.90

Cum Laude - equal to or greater than 3.50 and less than 3.70  I'm aiming for Magna Cum Laude AT LEAST!! I can't wait to see what's next for me. I know I'll be successful anywhere and I'm excited to see what opportunities God brings my way! The decision will be based on my happiness, its all about me graduating SCAD and making art cause that is what will make me happy.

But now today is Monday and I am a free bird.
Planing things to do or laying in bed cause I can.
Going on roadtrips or watching a movie on the couch.
I am doing what I want to do.
This time in Savannah is my real vacation because when I get back to Florida things will get real.
I'll be back on my school tip and working a job as well.
And next thing you know it will be September and I'm a senior starting Fall quarter at SCAD!
soooooo I am soaking up the fun and sun and FREEDOM in Sav.


Last night I tried Insanity for the first time with my friend Cetina. Armstrong University offers it free at night everyday this summer! I can't do it every night but I intend to do as much as I can. I have never sweat as much as I did that night. I was dripping sweat into my eye and probably could have peed myself lol. Shirt soaked. Heart pumping mad crazy! And the jumping bits get me a little dizzy. But honestly Insanity is do able. There are ample amounts of breaks and lots of room for progress. From the first time I saw Shaun T. on the doctors talking about his workout plan I knew he was legit because his workout plans make healthy sense. Its all about keeping your form and pushing your muscles to the max with 30sec breaks max. You really can do it. You just have to tell your body you can do it. I'm excited to continue his workouts. Plus its entertaining. More fun then working out by myself with the previous workout challenge I tried out. Stephanie's getting this body BEYOND on point ;)

It feels nice to take care of me.
No room for negativity.
No worries hehe
I don't mind waiting on the Lord!
I don't mind waiting on the LORD!!

I Love Who I Am

Today is Mother's Day.
I got to do quite a bit of of reminiscing with my friends at church and on my own when I got home.
I had such a lovely conversation with Kay Johnson, my kindred spirit, for hours in my room. Our conversation is always so intellectual, heart warming, realistic, and spiritual. I just love it.
I'm about to hit such a milestone in my life and I get emotional about it but in a good way.
I'm looking at pictures from High School and then looking at me now and I'm just like dang!
I am NOT the same person at all!
But I LOVE the person that I've become.


My confidence and self-esteem was never in the dumps but it wasn't really high at a younger age. And my strongest relationship did boost my confidence and influence lots of changes in my life and I give our relationship credit for what it did for me then. But that was then. If my confidence and self-esteem was dependent on that relationship, then when it ended I would fall and crumble but I didn't. I found my level of self-esteem that I made my own, and my relationship with God is the stimulator behind that confidence.
I think its alright to receive confidence from another person, but it's how you thrive alone is what speaks mountains about you who are and how you feel about yourself.

Last night, I went out downtown with my friends Malikah and Kye and had a great time walking around looking beautiful in our own individual ways. Every woman loves a good compliment, but she shouldn't live for that compliment and crave it. A woman deserves it, but a compliment should serve as reinforcement of something she already knows and if it's from someone handsome that is just a cherry on top lol.

PROVERBS CH. 31 (starting at verse 10)

Description of a Worthy Woman

10 An excellent wife, who can find ? For her worth is far above jewels. 11 The heart of her husband trusts in her, And he will have no lack of gain. 12 She does him good and not evil All the days of her life. 13 She looks for wool and flax And works with her hands in delight. 14 She is like merchant ships ; She brings her food from afar. 15 She rises also while it is still night And gives food to her household And portions to her maidens. 16 She considers a field and buys it; From her earnings she plants a vineyard. 17 She girds herself with strength And makes her arms strong. 18 She senses that her gain is good ; Her lamp does not go out at night. 19 She stretches out her hands to the distaff, And her hands grasp the spindle. 20 She extends her hand to the poor, And she stretches out her hands to the needy. 21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household, For all her household are clothed with scarlet. 22 She makes coverings for herself; Her clothing is fine linen and purple. 23 Her husband is known in the gates, When he sits among the elders of the land. 24 She makes linen garments and sells them, And supplies belts to the tradesmen. 25Strength and dignity are her clothing, And she smiles at the future . 26 She opens her mouth in wisdom, And the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. 27 She looks well to the ways of her household, And does not eat the bread of idleness. 28 Her children rise up and bless her; Her husband also, and he praises her, saying: 29"Many daughters have done nobly, But you excel them all." 30Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised. 31Give her the product of her hands, And let her works praise her in the gates.

 

The description of a worthy woman is so beautiful to me. Kay and I sat and read this today in my room and just remarked on the terminology and just awesomeness of this woman that is being described. A model of a proper wife, a blessed woman of God. "Her lamp does not go out at night" .... "Strength and dignity are her clothing" .... "She smiles at her future"
The NIV version of verse 25 says: "She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come."

Listen, lol, I just can't with how pure this is. No one is perfect, you have your moments of concern, weakness, fear, sadness and what have you but all of that are acts of the devil trying to fool you into a state of mind that God did not want for you.

Prayer, Trust, and Faith in the promise that God put over my life is what comforts me and allows me to LAUGH at the days to come, SMILE at my future. I am only going up from where I am now. I am calmly in my place called wait and I am so excited for the plans God has for me. The best consistent complement that any of friends have shared with me is my strength. There is something about my strength and independence that makes them so sure I'll be alright despite any "downfall" that may come my way. And I put "downfall' in quotes cause it may look and sound bad to someone else but I know every missed opportunity just means God has something better for me in store.

So here is my reality.....

I am 20 Years young, just months away from 21.
I am an Artist.
I am well above my years.
I am graduating college in one more year.
I am independent.
I am single.
I am confident.
I am strong.
I am determined
I am my own person.
I am not in control
I will not fret over finances
I will not be envious
I will not boast my achievements
I will not be sad about my losses
I will not be concerned with negativity
I will not allow any person, place or thing keep me from my divine Promise over my life.
I will be Fearless
I will Pray
I will complete a 4 year undergraduate degree in only 3 years.
I will study abroad in Europe.
I will leave Savannah, GA to work in another city or county that God will guide me to
I will be happy
I will be successful
I will be a vessel to help others and their walk in Christ
I will laugh and smile at my days to come
Because I am God's creation
Because God is in control
Because Knowledge is power
Because I acknowledge HIM
Because I am unashamed
Because I want to serve
Because I have NO doubt
Because He won't lead me astray
Because of my Faith
Because of Mercy
Because All is Well
Because of I Love Him
Because He Loves Me More.
Because He is able
Because the Blood Still Works
Because I Love Who I Am.