Shhh! It's Okay to Forget

It's okay to forget
Not that you need my permission
I want you to know it's okay to forget.

Separate the memories from the emotions
Realize that you are never losing
Only winning or learning.

Smile and be grateful for what you had
Let it Motivate you to never settle
Allow it to inspire you
Remind you of your worth

It's really okay to forget
God gave me permission
Burn it
Keep it
Hide it fRom yourself

One day it will be a distant memory
Another item in the closet
Something to smile at and push aside because you have a wife and child
Or maybe you'll return to mamas house
And she'll remind you when you had all of these pictures from a girl way back when
You'll laugh and wonder where they are
When she tells you their gone
I bet it won't hurt anymore.

It's okay to forget
Because i have
I take it for what it was and smile
I was spoiled
I was grateful
A first love well devoted in time
But quite the lesson that changed you and I

Certain things will never be the same
But you'll forget and relearn them again
I'm learning to love
By loving HIM
And HE's taught me how to forget and how to forgive.

2013/2014

Blogging is not the same

This weekend officially puts a CLOSE to my Summer 2013.
I've had a bunch of "bloggable" things to write about and spill but I didn't post a thing.

Since my last blog post I have:

Battled friendships

Gone to Jamaica - Experienced the country as an adult and awed over romantic possibilities.

Reconnected with the Solar System - The moon is my means of communication with someone unknown or known.

Met an old friend - Proof is what I like to call him.

Found a new Model

Left Florida and returned to Savannah

Passed my treacherous summer courses with straights A's

Made $1000

Made a plan - I financially live my life monthly and on a STRICT budget

Become a health-nut: I drink my vegetables and fruit and they taste amazing!

Applied to about 10 different job positions

Flirted

Found another new model

Tempted to just show up and stop someone in their tracks - I decided not to.

Turned Up

Flirted some more - I do it without even knowing

Made a mistake TWICE

Seriously compared myself to the life of artist Diego Riveria

Had a photo shoot with my fashionable buddy Touss

Hated on - It sucks to speak to people who you think knew you but by their diction you learn they really don't.

Re-evaluated what I want for myself

Learned from Said Mistakes - Prayer

Lied to myself

Let it all Go

Finished Season 2 of Scandal on Netflix

Planned my 21st birthday party

Had a job interview

Accepted my state, where I am, and how I am not going to do anything about it.

Made a to-do list

Shut down everything temporary and irrelevant

Typed this blog post - which brings us to NOW

Blogging is not the same because certain people rather read than talk to me. Reading seems to inspire a phone call or text message. Certain people read for the wrong reasons. It is my BELIEF not fact, but my belief that certain people read my blog posts to check up on me, read into any possible love life and friendships. It is my belief that certain people find SatisFACTION in my loneliness and failed associations... But I'm probably wrong about that.

So I'm switching things up.
Cause I do enjoy blogging it will be less because I plan on doing nothing and I mean nothing other than school, making money, and career stuff. I only have fun if its free, I can't pick up a shift, and or all my monthly expenses are covered. End of story.
I am on a strict budget, monitoring my expenses and income.
Praying on my finances asking God to relieve the stress from me because I know He'll make a way out of no way. I am nothing and HE is everything. I know nothing, all that I know and do is because of Him.

Weeks ago my sister who is a DJ emailed me Janelle Monae's album Electric Lady. I had been meaning to hear it but forgot. I saw so many facebook status's today about how awesome her album was I stopped for a moment to download it an played it while I worked at home. One song in particular blessed my spirit. The song is below for you all to enjoy.

 

"To win you'll have to lose all the things you know
Trying to light the fire deep inside
Father take all the fears and sorrow from my life
Cause when the rain falls
My seed will grow"
~Janelle Monae 

How it relates to me is in every lyric and prayer. Cause Lord knows its raining on my life in my world. But that's okay cause my fine ass will produce a beautiful garden.

 

 

 

 

 

Till Next Time...